I downloaded my 3 syllabuses for my seminary classes I’m taking this summer. Two of them are 13 pages long. Oh. My. Goodness. I haven’t even had the courage to read through all those pages let alone crack a page in one of the 5+ books that I need to read before we get to Colorado in June. I’m already sweating and then tonight I get my first email from an instructor and suddenly I’m 15 and terrified of failing again.
I know that I need this challenge. I know that it will be good for me to be stretched and to dig deeper into God’s word. But right now, as a tired mom of 2 I want nothing more than to crawl in a hole and pretend I have nothing looming over my head to do. So how am I coping you ask? Well, I’m devouring a bag of delicious Trader Joe’s Kettle Corn, blogging and watching American Idol. A little comfort activity mixed with procrastination and denial at its best.
Jenna was given homework today. Her comment was “Finally they’re giving us REAL homework that we have to return.” She then proceeded to finish all 7 pages of it after school. It’s due NEXT Thursday. Somehow I need to channel a little of Jenna’s enthusiasm and over achieving attitude into my own studies for the summer. Maybe I should pay her to be my coach, or read a book or two for me. Only kidding (sort of).