They say that most of the things that make us anxious and we worry about never actually happen. I wish that made crazy thoughts and worries go away, but it doesn’t always. Before I leave my kids and fly anywhere I always have the “what if’s” fly through my head a million miles a minute. It’s not like we don’t know what the day will bring even when we stay home and never leave our house, but there’s something about taking risk that heightens these crazy thoughts.
Getting ready to board a plane tomorrow for Costa Rica is a faith adventure for me. Yes, there are great reasons for going but it’s hard sometimes to actually go isn’t it? My stomach has already started the nervous churning, tears are close to the surface as I think about leaving my sweet family behind. The thought of taking off my wedding ring (so I don’t get robbed, hopefully) and leaving it behind feels emotionally difficult for me.
I’m already picturing it now, the students are going to look at Andy (our other staff going) and ask “Why did you bring this emotional mom along to “lead” us?” Oye. Heaven help me keep it together. I do know that the Lord uses the weak though so I think I’m a good candidate in that way to go I suppose. Also, we have a red eye flight out so all those sleepless nights as a mom, and blurry eyed days where you have to lead and get things done anyway should come in handy.
Here’s a good Truth to hang onto today:
Cast your cares on the Lord and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous fall. Psalm 55:22
When I am afraid, I will trust in you. Psalm 56:3
Now, I really should finish packing. I’ve been procrastinating this for sure. Look at my helper, isn’t he adorable?!
Pray for us to walk by faith, Trust God, bless those already serving there that we’ll partner with, and that He’ll do great things in and through us.
I’m also praying that the weather decides to be kind and not rain. One can always ask right. I just looked at the weather and it said mostly clouds, rain and 100% humidity one day. Can you say disgusting to that kind of humidity? I’m glad I won’t have my nice camera now; I will not want to capture the havoc that kind of weather will have on my lovely hair 🙂 Hair aside, I really do want to see God do great things. I’ll let you know all about it when I return.