Today wraps up the end of the 30 days of Thanks for November and yes, I realize that I missed about 4 of them. I was still thankful those days for something but having family in town and having a terrible cold that seems to want to stay for the holidays took me out for a few of them. With that said, today was a trying day. It was a day of extreme ups and downs but mostly downs. I’m sure you’ve had those days.
As I was sitting on the floor of my bedroom with the sun beaming in on me so brightly that I couldn’t open my eyes when it wasn’t behind a cloud I was praising God for the warmth and beauty of the day. At the same time though I had tears streaming down my cheeks from yet another hard thing opportunity for God to show up in a big way. We seem to be surrounded by those right now. As I was watching the trees blow in the wind there are still beautiful gold leaves on the trees lining the street and they are hanging on for dear life. They are clinging to those branches as if to want to savor every last second of fall that there is. That’s how I feel right now, clinging on to the branch for dear life. I’m thanking God in all the ways I know how, trying to keep my perspective and at the same time feeling like I can’t take a whole lot more in the way of challenge right now.
Today I read in 2 Cor. 12:9,10:
My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness. Therefore, I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecution, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
Well, I certainly feel weak so this should be a great time for the Lord to prove strong. I only wish I could always delight in all those things. I would rather delight in comfort and a great dessert and some coffee. How about you? God’s ways are certainly different from mine but I’m so thankful that He knows best.
What about you, is it hard for you to feel strong when you are at your weakest?
This made me so want to jump in my car and make the drive to come wrap my arms around you and cry with you. I don’t know what’s happening but I am so sorry for your pain. You know as well as anyone that God can do beautiful things with us when we are the most broken. I love you, know you are in my thoughts and prayers!
These posts are SO FRUSTRATING only because I want to know what is wrong so I can fix it. Because I would. I’m sure I probably could if you’d just spill the beans and stuff.
I’m sorry that opportunities for God to reveal Himself abound, if only because I know how painful such opportunities can be. I love you, dear Jody.